Well that crept up quick. I don't think I got over the shock of her turning 16. And next she will be 18 and that scares me more.
This little love didn't want anything special for her birthday. She is happy surrounded by us, in our bubble with a warm house and lots of love. When I persuaded her to spend some money on herself, she bought one thing for £10 and another thing for £5. Im not entirely delighted with the things she bought but she chose them and she is happy....... That's what counts.
Mark and I were out tonight. It's one of the few times we can talk about Ellie and her future. We enjoyed a meal (and a vino!! Oh and also this weird Brazilian cocktail that was like petrol combined with moonshine). We can't truly make plans for Ellie as one day, she might figure it all out for herself. I dont want to shape her into a perfect square when she might just want to be a rhomboid, you know? We just have to keep an eye on her and let her find her feet.
Although we did discuss a safety net for her future. And it hurt to do this because really, parents of a 17 year old shouldn't have to. But we did and we can use it if it's needed.
She is at her Nanna's house tonight and for the first time ever, she will wake up in a different place on her actual birthday. Things like this break her routine, which she actually needs and hopefully might jerk a change in direction. Who knows.
Whatever life throws at her at least she has the comfort of home and family to fall back on. Really, what else could anyone need more than that?
Happy Birthday, wonderful girl x