I honestly wish I could stop getting in a pickle over what is literally 3 days of scoffing and wrapping and fretting over getting that special present "wrong". Cos whilst I'm sat here, belly laden with food that is melting towards my thighs and butt, I think....wow, why did I get in such a tizz? We only have to get through the New Year and then its reality check dot com..... back to no tinsel and super sweet candles smoking up the side of the wall!
I am ever hopeful that 2010 will be our year. Last year was NOT our year. Mark being made redundant 3 times in the space of 12 months was a sick joke and me, myself, working until 4 in the morning 5 days a week - trying to make things work/make ends meet, will hopefully be a thing of the past. The insomnia over Ellie's state of health and well being should subside because we pretty much have got to the stage of shrugging our shoulders and getting on with it (its hurts, I can't deny it - but its got to be done). I'm going to stop making excuses for Ellies behaviour/health to the ignorance's of others and just hope that other peoples maturity accepts it/stops judging it. I'm going to work doubly hard in a shorter space of time to give me the sleep I deserve. I'm going to take up yoga, lord knows I deserve to channel that inner peace that's been lacking in the past 6/7 years. I'm going to sling out the old and welcome the new in the nake, if I have to ......heeeeeeeeee!!!!
Drudgery aside, I am so excited about a couple of new opportunities in early 2010. I am so geared up for them to work and grow.....more than you or I could ever measure. I don't know why we hope that new years can make all the difference but I figure if you meet it half way, you are going in the right direction. Only you can make things happen for yourself and that nobody - not even god or angels come knocking at your doors offering you good luck and fortune. You have to attract it, positively - read The Secret and you will know what I mean by that!
I started by clearing out mine and Ellies old clothes today. That and books and stuff we no longer need. 7 bin liners later and a grateful "Help the Aged" charity shop later we are feeling so relieved and better in ourselves for making room for stuff we really want and need. Honest, I feel completely refreshed we did that today. Try it!!! (but does help when you have very little space for all the new stuff we got in the sales!)
Im going to update you with photos tomorrow of our lovely christmas..... plus a lovely project I made today for my hallway.