....and carry on.
That's my new focus.
Still hurting though.
Poor Belle still has no idea about whats going on so I gently explained to her yesterday evening and after wondering if she going to die (which I majorly shouted NO!) she was cool.
And, you know, Im not mad with the NHS. Like Jen mentioned in the comments in the post below, i dont think these Doctors study years of medicine to be callous or mean. But I do think there should be better support and access to information is more easily to hand. Im sure Im allowed to still feel frustrated with a poor system of care. But, at least we know she has one ailment diagnosed and that can be observed. Always grateful for the care. im just not grateful for time wasting appointments and appointments where things are discovered but not discussed.
Belle has a planned weekend of infinite affection from my parents and we have promised her a new dvd to reward her for being so brave when she gave blood at the hospital. Mark went on a long geocache this morning, he is almost up to 700 and has forty planned with my father on Saturday. I got my roots done and you know what having your roots done means to your soul! Its my only and favourite treat. I had a bit of a re-style to make me feel more summery and it took a load of the weight off. And as soon as belle saw it tonight she said "wow". Belle rarely gives out emotion in this sense; I liked it! Even mark was knocked off his socks. Photobooth quality pics are not the best, ey?!!
My hairdresser today made me feel like a million dollars even if she did tip the bleach a little heavier than normal. And so what? Time to shake my tail feathers and dust down my frock. New beginnings, I guess.
Im going to share a ton of photos including projects tomorrow to make up for lack of photoness. From pixies in the park last week with Sarah and her kids and our visit to Piel Island in Sunday with my friend Terrie and co. My blog needs an injection of memories because Im turning it into a couple of books so that Ellie can savour the ups and downs of her crazy momma in years to come. I certainly don't hold back, I hope she can put up with what some of you guys have done for the past 3.5 years.
And by the way, each and every comment and e-mail that I have received from you has been of great strength and comfort and I absolutely treasured each and every one - Thank you xx