I have a few "off" days now and again.
Some are for validity and some are "just because".
Life is like that, I can't pretend everything is rosy all of the time.
You see, people who read this blog see the tip of the iceberg - that proud, magnificent structure standing majestically in the bright daylight.
All bright and happy and going about my daily life as ever, as normal.
But beneath the surface lies a dark and large area of mysteriousness that forms the inner core of one's self.
Not that Im dark and mysterious, mind.
How can I convey this without sounding like Im speaking in code?
My mum describes me as a complex character.
I know she is right.
Im a person who likes to fully try and understand a feeling or situation.
I over analyse, break it up into a million pieces, read it forwards, backwards and inside out.
Even with my eyes shut.
I just have to question everything.
It has to be an equation I can handle.
Thats Aquarians, you know.
So intense, searching for the formula, the dimensions, the depth and the solution.
Then just when you think they might need to sit and digest it all, they are off again, ready to solve the next issue.
It can be quite taxing but most of all, its soul searching with a purpose.
And lessons can be cheerfully or sorefully learned.
I cant say I love being like it but it sure cleanses the mind. And when I look back on various chapters of my life and how I dealt with them and how much I earned from them then I realise it was worth the journey and indeed the heartache.
Again, Im not speaking in code, Im trying to signify what makes me tick. If anyone "got" what I just said, kind of help me out here!!!
So Anyway, I have had my holiday. I have had my spell at my Momma's and I am back home.
And I gets this phone call.
From the USA.
And I can't say anymore.
It was like somebody had lifted a dead weight from the fuzziness of my mind.
I can tell you more next week but instead of the little frowny pout on my mush, I have a cheesy grin as wide as the Cheddar Gorge.
And on that note, I feel a Wensleydale and Craberry cheese moment coming on.